tomorrow morning i have the opportunity to share our story to a group of women in blacksburg, va. i am honored and excited. as i prepared a bit today...scrolled though pictures and old blog posts i was quickly reminded of how good the Lord is. it was not too sad. i did not cry. i will cry tomorrow. i have not figured out how to share it without tears. sometimes they are sad and sometimes they are joyful tears. but my heart feels full and thankful that something as awful and scary and horrible as cancer...has truly been the thing that changed my life in the best way possible.
(side note: there is a bit of tension in my heart as i write this because although i am honored and thankful for the chance to share about the Lord, cancer, my family, and how we were literally carried through cancer. i do pray everyday that i will ever get cancer again. i would rather not walk that road again. i have never looked forward to a PET scan...but come this feburary after our little girl is born i can not wait to be proven wrong. that all my pain and discomfort were just pregnancy side effects and nothing more. not cancer. not chemo. not sick. but a healthy momma of two).
in the midst of the joy and truth i will share tomorrow i am still striving to live in a way that is not stunted by fear or the unknown. but rests in the truth. no matter what our story holds i trust the Author who is writing it. His plan is better than my plan. that is where my hope is found and that is where i find rest. i hope you will join me.