britt is back in ohio. justin is home from camp. my mom and dad arrived tonight. its been good. justin took the day off and we spent it relaxing and hanging out with ava. we did make one run. to starbucks. my new drink is the carmel brulee latte with skim milk and no whip. its good. and feels like the holidays to me. i prefer justin home rather than away. which i guess makes for a better marriage. i mean the fact that i like to be with him. but really i am looking forward to a week of feeling good. being with family. justin taking some much need time off and resting before chemo. i bought my first thanksgiving turkey last night. my dr. was nice enough to let me have thanksgiving and then i will get my chemo treatment friday. i am really looking forward to cooking. and learning how to cook better with my mom and dad helping me. i am shocked too because a few months ago i never would have imagined i would be helping cook thanksgiving dinner with cancer. God is good.
i am getting into the holiday mood too. thinking about new traditions we will start as a family now that we have ava. christmas gifts. decorating. buying a larger christmas tree (we do fake). finding matching stockings. and how our kids will get new pajamas for christmas the day after thanksgiving to begin the excitement of the season. i like pajamas so i hope my kids will too. oh, the thought of it all makes my heart really joyful.
i still have my hair. its taking its sweet time. and maybe it will not end of falling out. which would fine.
on a final note justin and i decided we are going to go to new york city once i am cancer free. stay in times square. go to a broadway play. dress up. eat good food. go shopping and experience life. and we are going all out. that means different things to different people. but it will be going "all out" for us. and i love having that to look forward to. this season will pass. and the idea of that fills my soul in a new way. i feel like i am learning a lot right now and trying to put my thoughts together. but that is for another day. i am real sleepy. when ava gets up in the morning we are making breakfast for the family.
finally. one of best friends had a baby today. its an extra special occasion. we love you already little jonah.